hi nicky. well i dont know, i wish i could just talk to you on the phone or something but i know that cant be. i miss you so much, i cant even begin to explain. my heart hurts, my body hurts, everything hurts. there is not a moment that goes by where i am not thinking about you. most of the time im thinking about what life would be like if you were still here with us. i know i cant keep doin that but gossshh. then i think about just you and the awesome person you were. i think about your beautiful life that was taken like you meant nothing to anyone - when it was the total opposite. i dont know what to do nicky. i really dont. ive been tryin not to cry cause i know you dont like that, but mannn its hard. how do you live your life when half of you is missin???? i need your help. i really need you, but i know thats impossible. i miss you nickk soo extremely much. nothing is ever goin to be the same EVER!! i just dont know.
Nicholas Adam . I Love You & I Promise To Love You Until The End Of Time!
Shine Brightly My Beautiful Angel. 
nick, it was so hard without you today i miss you more than words could describe i love u so much<3
Nicky, so many random memories have been popping into my head. I remember when I used to drive you and Shanna to school and you would
never wait for me to park because I took way too long. One of my favorites is definately when we went to the Sox game with Renae and Marcy, except we really didn't get to go since for the first 6 innings you were puking in the parking lot of Burger King-- haha! But I got you back for that when I was sick at Heather's house and you had to deal with me! The Christmas Eve's at your house were always memorable too. I remember when you came home and held Jaelyn for the first time, and you made fun of me because I was always afraid to hold her when she was that little. Out of all my memories, my favorite one is the last time we played scat at your house, it was your whole family, Dave & I, you and Erica, a whole bunch of us. We were dressing Jaelyn up and making her take all these pictures, she was so little then! I laughed so much that night!!! Everyone was so happy because you were home, and that is how I like to remember everyone-- laughing and happy. You will always be a part of me and so will your family, I will never forget all the good times we had (and the bad ones too!). I hope you know how much you mean to me and how much I care about you. I love you so much and think about you constantly... Always and Forever in my Heart
well _ i dont really know to begin, thats one of the reasons i havent been able to write on any of pages. another being it makes me so angry & upset knowin that you wont be writin me a wise but lovin comment back. i dont even know if any of this will make sense to anyone that will pass by your page but im not worried because i know you will because you always understand me even when i make no sense.
I MISS YOU NICHOLAS!! no words will ever [for the rest of my life] explain how much my heart hurts from missin you. my heart really hurts babe, like with every beat! i love you so much babi & i know i shouldnt cry when i say that cause i know you knew that & i know how much you loved me. i cry cause ill never get to tell you i love you again in person, i have to wait until i see you again. i cry cause we had our whole lives planned out from where we were gonna live to how many kids we were gonna have. yea some of our friends thought we were crazy cause we were so young & blah blah but we knew that we were meant for each other. we knew that we werent anything without the other. i still remember the first time you told me you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me. you were in AIT & we were just chattin & you kinda came outta no where & said "hunni im gonna marry you" i was just kinda like um ok & you said no babe im serious. haha ooh mann that was 3 years ago! you always called me a gooba for rememberin the little things but i am so happy that i do nick! the little things are wat i am constantly thinking bout. all your lil names you had for me...precious / erica babi / erica marie / suga...you made me love my name, i love the way you would say "erica babi" haha ooh nicholas! i miss wakin up & bein able to read in an AIM "mornin beautiful ill call you at lunch" it made me smile every time.
we made a promise to each other babe, that we were gonna be together until we were old and grey & i know we cant really do that physically but i want you to know that emotionally & any other way possible im keepin my end of the promise [ i know you will too ] you will FOREVER & ALWAYS be a part of everything i do. you were my everything & more _ you are always goin to be my everything & more... i promise til love you until we see each other again & when that day comes we can start where we left off..
I LOVE YOU NICHOLAS ADAM . FOREVER & ALWAYS MY BOO
and omg when me u and dave got locked in the cruiser and it was about 99 outside ...hahaha
